Well things are still going GREAT with me and my boyfriend. We went to Six Flags at the beginning of the month with his friend and her boyfriend. It was SOOOO much fun.. I rode as many rides as I could and kept my eyes open on all of em. :] I'm so proud of mahself lol. We're looking at places to move in together though I pretty much live at his house/rental as it is.. just not officially. A few nights a week I spend at my parent's still so I don't rouse TOO much suspicion.. and it gives Alex some alone time because everyone needs some every now and then.

I'm really happy with this man and from what I gather/observe, he's happy with me too.

So.. going to Kansas to retrieve some of my belongings from 's mom's place. Originally he wasn't going to be there but as it turned out.. (no surprise here).. Ohio was a bust for him so he's going back to his mum's. Now it's not all that bad he's going to be there. Granted I don't like him anymore, he's still one of the most non-confrontational people you'd ever meet.  So no worries about anything being thrown.. like a punch or name calling. HOWEVER.. not only is he going to be there but is going to be there too. She and I had a.. falling out I guess.. and she refuses to talk to me. Well as far as I'm concerned, I don't have anything to say to someone who doesn't wanna talk to me in the first place anyway. I love her to death.. even still.. so this is hard on me. I feel tossed aside by her. But unlike most cast aside people/belongings which do nothing but long for their former playmate or loved one to return to their broken hearts or feelings... I am moving forward. I just hope she doesn't open her mouth to say something mean or hurtful to me. I don't know if I can handle it.. and my temper as is will be on edge in the high anxiety situation.

The good thing about this trip to Kansas though? I'll have Alex with me. The man I love like none other. I feel safe with him and when I'm in his arms, all my anxiety dissipates, even if only briefly. 2 nights at a Ramada inn luxury hotel with him... child free.. omg